i don’t have much time to write, so i may expand upon this later. but i wanted to put it out there so i don’t forget.

i think part of the reason i’ve always been so gung-ho for having a girl is because i felt like i’d be able to handle some of her crises better, because i’ve been there. i still remember quite well what elementary school can be like if you’re shy and/or fat. i can remember being a teenage girl and all that entailed. and i have some thoughts on what to tell a girl about her body issues. but i have no idea what it’s like to be a boy! i don’t know how a boy should handle things like bullying or feeling ugly or disputes with friends. i don’t know what it’s like to have a voice that cracks at inopportune times or body parts that do other embarrassing things at inopportune times. (i know what it’s like to accidentally fart in front of someone you have a crush on, but i have a feeling that it might be slightly less mortifying than standing at the chalk board with a boner.) i know that sohei will be able to handle a lot of this, but the thing is, i don’t want him to. not alone, anyway. i had all these notions about the ideas i wanted to plant inside my poor child’s malleable brain. i know what i want for my kid. but i can’t help but worry that maybe sohei will have a solution that i might not agree with if i knew more about the situation. thankfully, i’m not sure this will come up too often, since most of the time we seem to be sharing a brain. but i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t a little worried about how to handle these things, or whether sohei will handle them like i would…