carvedangel.net

i finally have my site set up on wordpress. all that’s left is some minor tweaking, i think. it’s freakin’ sweet. it will be hard waiting til new year’s to start using it. of course, it’s looking like i’ll have to perhaps do a separate theme for explorer users, since a couple of things aren’t working when viewed with that browser. so i guess it’s just as well that i have to wait. but i’m actually really liking wordpress. i can have private entries that only certain viewers can read, switchable themes, categories, etc. i still need to figure out how to implement the theme switcher, and how to set privacy levels, but i think it’ll be fine. oh, and i’m sorry that the site looks bloody awful right now, but i was using it to test some things. the new layout will look nice at any size, though, for once.

it’s been pretty boring around here, lately, but i don’t think there’s been a whole lot going on, anyway. except political stuff, and i don’t feel like foaming at the mouth just now.

well, let’s see if this actually posts. i tried to post on friday, and it didn’t work. stupid blogger. i’m getting annoyed with blogging, in general, if you haven’t noticed by my lack of posts. it was my intention to switch to b2 evolution and launch my new blog on january 1. but everyone i talked to on their “support” forums was a total dick. which is why i’m no longer going to use their software. so i’m trying to use wordpress. yes, again. i’m actually having better luck with it than usual, but it’s still giving me problems, and no one on the forums is helping. at all. sure, they’re not being assholes, like the people over at b2, but if i can’t get my blog set up, it’s not really going to be very useful, is it? i’m just kind of sick of messing with it at this point, and it’s beginning to look like, no matter what i choose to do, none of it will be ready by january 1. which is an arbitrary date, but i’d really like to just have everything set up, so i can just freaking blog.

and i don’t really feel like talking about anything else right now.

maybe it’s because i’m rather depressed today, or in a weird mood, but reading this brought me as close to tears as i’m comfortable being at work. (if i were at home, however, i think i would have actually cried.) just mind-blowing.

i finished all my school work yesterday, after working my ass off for over a week. so you’d think i wouldn’t be stressed right now, right?

hahahahaha…

i just learned, this morning, that i have a meeting at church tonight, and they want the case statement and, presumably, some kind of sample of the brochure. have i written the case statement? no. do i have anything tangible to give them for the brochure? no. in fact, i just got my subcommittee together last week to start on that, so at least i’ve gotten somewhere. kind of.

so that leaves me this afternoon to come up with something decent for the case statement, when i’m not even entirely sure what i’m supposed to be doing. for some perspective, i think the finished case statement was due on november 7. so, yeah.

between school and church and the perpetual shit that goes on in my marriage (now! with holiday/law school application stress!) i want to just disappear. i want to be completely and totally alone, until my sanity comes creeping back. that includes my beloved animals, who have been literally whining incessantly since i got home from work. not exactly conducive to trying to write an impossible document which is due in a few hours’ time.

i can’t even describe how stressed out i am right now. i just want the world to go away for a while.

i know it’s wrong, but i think the still captured here is really cute. okay, i’ll be going to hell now. i just can’t hate laura. she’s a fellow librarian, and while she can give off a creepy vibe sometimes, i kind of feel sorry for her. i don’t think she’s nearly as evil as her husband or his crazy mother. talk about nasty in-laws… poor woman.

[music|tum bin shayam - dj cheb i sabbah]

just checking in. coz i’m supposed to be finishing my paper.

i took my first sick day today. technically, i don’t get sick days, so this makes me nervous. but there is no way i could’ve made it through work today with my stomach behaving like it was. this wasn’t my usual ibs, either, or the meds would’ve worked for it. around 2 this morning, i was dreaming about something – don’t remember what – when, in my dream, my stomach started making these awful noises, and i felt like i was going to be sick. well, the noises were real, and loud enough to actually wake me up. i stared stupidly at my gut for a few seconds, realized i wasn’t still dreaming, and dashed to the bathroom. :sick:

so, anyway, i also dreamt that i was on a plane, which crashed right into the ocean. and have just learned that juchan is flying to new orleans today. so i’m a bit nervous and will be calling her shortly.

after i get back from being sick again. excuse me.

[music|the guitar - they might be giants]

weather pixie is back! w00t. but you can’t actually see it on my site because blogger won’t publish any changes to my template. well fuck you, blogger. i’m totally breaking up with you soon, and i’m really glad, you big, stupid dummy. jerk.

[music|maname diname - dj cheb i sabbah]

Your 2005 Song Is

Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz “Love forever love is free. Let’s turn forever you and me.” In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain.

[tv|food network]

what i’m supposed to be doing: working on one of two term papers or one of two projects or my church stuff.

what i’m going to do: go to bed and continue reading the jungle.

because i’m really tired, and my back hurts so badly today that it was actually going into weird spasms at work. so, once again, i say suck it, world.

oh, and i’m pretty much set to begin blogging with new software as of january 1, like i planned. i’m going to do a couple more backgrounds, but aside from that, i think the hard stuff is done. because i do my best web work when i’m supposed to be doing just about anything else. (i fixed my layout in firefox, btw, i’m just too lazy to do it over here.)

and i never mentioned it, coz i was waiting for juchan to blog about it, but her trip to nc for thanksgiving seemed to go well. apparently, our stepbrother (omg, i have a brother) has pictures of us on his cell phone. or ipod. i forget. anyway, juchan and i were touched but mortified, because they were the really awful pics dad took of us when we went to the timeshare in august. still, i think that’s about the sweetest thing ever. i can’t wait to meet him. i don’t think i’ve said much about him here, but he’s 15, i think, and likes playing basketball. and video games. and that’s all i know. (yes, it is a bit odd to have a mom and brother you know absolutely nothing about. well, juchan does, lucky jerk. haha j/k)

and brumby’s going to the vet tomorrow for his last vaccine and to get fixed. i’m rather worried about my baby dog going under the knife, even if it is standard procedure. so wish him well, please? and i’m not looking forward to being without him for a day, either, coz he has to stay the night. mehhhh my poor little brum-brum… at least he’s over his cough. dunno whether i mentioned that or not…

okay, i’m going to bed.